In that long summer before Season 8 began and shippers were reeling from
the realities of Scully's pregnancy and Mulder's abduction, I, along with many
others, seethed in preparation for the appearance of the new character, Doggett. Bashing occurred; general whining occurred; people were stressed and greatly
annoyed with the idea of "another" Mulder. At least that's how it was in my
particular, and only, fan "community." We waited apprehensively for the premiere,
and held our breaths. For I was a big a shipper as anyone.
By the end of the first episode, I was forced to concede that Doggett was not
really the spawn of Satan, and that in fact he was just an honest guy trying to
do his job. I decided that Doggett would be tolerable until Mulder's return.
Nothing much else happened to change my view of the X-world until that
glorious episode, "Via Negativa." I was sympathetic to Doggett as I had never
been before; and what's more, I found myself greatly intrigued by the strange
idea that... Doggett was in love with Scully.
It completely shocked me. Yet, there it was. All the other victims had dreamed
of their worst nightmares -- Doggett, meanwhile, dreamed of Scully's death. Why
would that be so terrible to him? Surely there were worse things than that? But
no, I was forced to conclude that Doggett had something going on for Scully,
something that made me actually like him. I was no longer just tolerating him. I enjoyed him. And I was halfway to the 'dip.
That was when I began my first Doggettfic -- "Unrequited," it was. He still
wasn't one of my favorite, favorite characters, so it was extremely weird for me
to write a fic about him, but write I did. I was just as surprised as my shipper
friends. I still wanted Mulder to come back, and for he and Scully to ride into
the sunset, but ... I liked this unrequited thing of Doggett's.
I became more involved in the fan-community, and joined the Church of X
mailing list. There were some serious Doggett-lovers there, and by the end
of a week or two, after "Medusa" had aired, I began to think of Doggett as hot,
and I wondered if Mulder was really necessary. "Per Manum" aired, and I went
giggly at the shippy bits -- but also when Doggett put his hand on Scully's shoulder.
During that month after "This Is Not Happening," I tried my hand at a few more
Doggett stories, and wrote my last MSR to date. (Wow, I never realized that
before... gulp... am I forgetting my roots?) "DeadAlive" aired, and I decided that
yes, definitely, Doggett was in love with Scully. Who could ignore those pleading
looks, that sad gaze at the end of the episode? Sigh... poor Doggett.... And
then of course, Mulder was a jerk during "Three Words" and "Empedocles," and
I wondered what was going on. I clung to the knowledge that at least Doggett
was still manly and wonderful.
"Alone" -- the unrequited 'dip, or the demi-dip, as I called it, was unbearable. I
could not see how anyone could look at that and say, "Nope, Doggett doesn't
love her." And I squealed like a rabid shipper, not when Mulder quoted Oprah,
or when Scully said, "I hugged you until you were warm," but when Scully
hugged Doggett. AAAAAA! I freaked. :)
And "Daemonicus" -- oh, man. Just -- oh, man. ;)
So when did I make the transition from demi-dipper to dipper? Old e-mail
gathering dust in my filing cabinet says around December or January, when
I began playing with the idea that maybe Doggett and Scully had some kind
of relationship during the three months Mulder was buried. I even started up
a fanfic devoted to the idea -- "Minor Variation," which I now think is one of
my very favorite stories (of mine, anyway). I sent it out to the Addicted to
Doggett list, my pro-Doggett haven, and got almost zilch feedback -- except
from Meg and Lisa S. And they convinced me to join SHODDS, and the
rest is history!
I admit that when I first joined I was a little apprehensive. The 'dip was still
very new to me, and I hesitated to embrace it fully. But now, I can't think of
*not* wanting Doggett and Scully together. There is still the problem of
Mulder, and I do still like him, and I do still enjoy some semblance of the
ship. I think. ;) But now the 'dip will occupy a permanent place in my
little heart, because Doggett is manly and deserves Scully (at least, like
you guys were saying, nonweepy Scully. The Scully of S5, yes, all the
way up to the middle or so of S8 -- she *was* butt-kicking, wasn't she?
Memories....), and Scully deserves him. I love Reyes and all, and I'm
certain she's madly in love with Doggett, but I don't know if he really sees
her as much more than a kid sister, or a tagalong friend. She *is* rather
younger than him. So I don't know.
Anyway, though, long live the Doggship!
Oh, and, shameless plug time -- I've updated my website a bit. I have a new
mini-Storytime about DoggettTorture, and "Watchful Eyes" is up, and... yes. Go see it! :-D
4 June 2002